and now, without further ado, my first post! in the form of a short short story!
BALLOONS
They met on a glowing autumn day as
the late afternoon light poured through the fall leaves like honey. The boy was
sitting on a bench in the park, lost in his thoughts, when, suddenly, he looked
up from his lap and he saw a girl unlike any other. Their eyes locked. As hard
as he tried, he could not look away. He knew that he could love this girl for
the rest of his life.
As if in a trance, the boy stood up
and walked toward the girl. The girl had started walking in his direction as
well. After what seemed like an eternity, the boy was finally standing in front
of this miraculous girl. He imagined that her eyes were deeper than the
Marianas Trench as he gazed into their blueness. “Tell me a story,” he said.
“Tell me the story of your life, starting from the minute you were born.”
They soon
became inseparable. But the boy never felt completely at ease with the girl. He
often felt that something wasn’t quite right, that something was off. Their
budding relationship reminded him of a tiny moth, rescued from a puddle of
water. Though, at first, the little moth was shaky and unsteady, it could still
be saved. It merely required the sweetness and consideration one must always
use when handling something so fragile. Even speaking in tones that were
anything other than hushed and reverential as the moth regained its strength
was risky. Otherwise, the moth could become frightened, spread its newly healed
wings, and disappear in an instant.
But time
passed and, from the outside, their life seemed perfect. Everyone thought the
boy and the girl completed one another; that they were meant to be. Yet, as the
days wore on, the boy thought that he could feel the girl pushing him away. He
was convinced that the girl was growing restless, claustrophobic. She must feel
as if she is sitting in a canoe that is stranded in the middle of a stagnant,
sluggish lake, thought the boy.
The boy knew that he was smothering
the girl with his anxieties but he couldn’t help it. Not at all. Not one bit.
Sometimes the boy longed to siphon all his worries and fears into a balloon and
send it up, up and away, so he could move through life unencumbered. So he
could truly love the girl without getting in his own way. But he knew that the
balloon would eventually reach the sun and then it would pop and all those
bothersome feelings would come tumbling back to him.
Unbeknownst to the boy, he was the
only constant in the girl’s life. While the boy remained stuck inside his head
day after day, always the same, everyone else that the girl cared for was
changing. Her friends and family were growing older, settling down. Starting
careers, starting families. Creating new lives in new places. As the boy had
sensed (though his guess as to why was wrong), the girl was becoming anxious.
The palpable energy of change, of new beginnings, was swirling all around her
and, because of this energy, the girl began to examine her own life. Where did
she want to be? What did she want to do? Who did she want by her side? Was she happy with her life the way it was now?
One night, during dinner, the girl said, “I feel like everyone is leaving me
behind.”
“Not me,” the boy said. “I’ll never
leave you.”
“Oh, really?” said the girl.
“Because you’re the person that I would like to be left behind by the most.”
The boy sat in stunned silence. He
wanted to say a million, billion, trillion things to the girl. The boy searched
his mind desperately for the right thing to say. He wanted so very badly to
believe that there were particular words that existed which, when placed in the
correct order, would change the girl’s mind. The boy wanted to scream as loud
as he could, to pound his fists on the table, to throw his dinner plate at the
wall. Anything to keep the girl from leaving him.
However, in the end, the boy said absolutely
nothing. He didn’t move an inch. He knew their relationship was over. That tiny
moth could not be saved after all. Well, the boy thought to himself, what a fun
little experiment in living.
This was fascinating and had great imagery.
ReplyDeleteThanks so much for the feedback, and for reading, Betsy!
ReplyDeleteJust lovely...the story built so beautifully. The paragraph where you described the boy in stunned silence was especially moving - you really felt the depth of the boy's emotions.
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