In the early morning hours, when his insomnia would
catch up to him and refuse to let him go, Dusk would roam
his apartment like a tortured spirit unable to find peace in the hereafter. It
was during this time that he did his best thinking and his best self-loathing.
The longer Dusk stayed awake, aimlessly drifting through the shadows of his
darkened apartment, mired in his loneliness, the stronger his self-loathing
became. What was wrong with him? Why was he always alone?
Try as he may, Dusk couldn’t shake his stubborn
feelings of melancholy and self-doubt. Dusk went about his routine that day as
usual but his despair hovered over him like a cloud of ravenous gnats that
refused to be dispersed no matter how violently he swatted them away. Dusk
tried reading one of the books from the giant stack on his nightstand in an
effort to focus on someone else’s problems. He tried listening to some of his
favorite records, the ones that always cheered him up when he was feeling blue.
When he was hungry, he made himself a bowl of macaroni and cheese. Yet, as the
hours passed, the cloud of gnats grew thicker and more persistent. Dusk decided
to visit his friend, Night, to discuss the problem. Whereas Dusk allowed his
myriad neuroses to cloud his judgment, Night was always rational and clear
thinking. Night never let feelings cloud his vision when it mattered. Maybe
Night would be able to understand what he was going through, why he felt so
sad. Maybe Night would know why he was always alone.
As Dusk meandered along the tree lined street that
lead to his friend’s house, the cloud of gnats anxiously swarmed about his
head. Shuffling on leaden feet, Dusk considered his life thus far. The longer
he turned his life over and over in his mind as if it were an apple he was
rinsing under a faucet, the more Dusk felt his life was full of mistakes. All,
essentially, the same mistake endlessly repeated. One after another, after
another. So, here he was again, turning to Night for help because he was
utterly lost. Again. And he hoped Night could save him. Again.
Oh goody, I can hardly wait for part two. :)
ReplyDeleteMe too, I'm looking forward to part two!
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